Never have these words of Jesus from the gospel of Thomas brought me the full understanding until this morning. As long as I identify with what is happening to my body I am no more than the nature of this dream world itself. I am no more than a plant and will return to this earth in the story of most of humanity; dust to dust. But if I choose to surrender my humanity and identify with the One, the spirit that I am ( the One that is living me) my holiness will overcome all the sufferings of this world.
How do I know this? I know because in the short hours that I experience being spirit it is so. This morning’s meditation brought me the metaphor of the caterpillar and the butterfly. I can identify with the aging caterpillar or I can allow the process of disintegration of my old story and emerge as a butterfly. To do this I must let go, surrender to the Oneness with great trust. I want healing, wholeness, not sympathy. The caterpillar self desires sympathy thinking it is love. The butterfly knows its own wholeness, desiring nothing but its own freedom.
One cannot choose until one knows there is a choice available. Is there free will? I do not know. I just know that at this moment there seems to be. And in this moment I choose love instead of fear. I choose to identify with spirit instead of the body and my life story. I choose life instead of death.